i'm totally devastated. i would've given everything i had when i said that i believed you. i believed you with my whole being. i'm your sister. i love you unconditionally. we've been through so much in our lives. you're only 20. why did you do this? why would you screw up your life? why? i could ask it forever.

i love you and i feel like you've punched me in the stomach.
i hope this works out, but it doesn't look good.
why?